Forever & Always

So here's to everything, coming down to nothing

Here's to silence that cuts me to the core

Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute

But I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone; he still hasn't called

And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all

And you flashback to when he said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

'Cause I was there when you said forever and always

You didn't mean it, baby
You said forever and always,

Escape

 When someone is willing to help you mend your heart that's been shattered into million pieces, how could you say no?

Too many shadows in my room 

Too many hours in this midnight 

Too many corners in my mind 

So much to do to set my heart right 

Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready 

Oh but if i take my heart's advice 

I should assume it's still unsteady 

I am in repair, i am in repair 

"We're just here for you."

I'm going back to Elbi tomorrow.

"We're just here for you", all of my friends say. And that's exactly the problem. They are where they are and not with me. I need friends who will be physically with me. But of course they can't be with me because they have jobs and all other crap more important than a friend who's thinking of suicide. So I'll just go where they are so that it'll be more realistic the next time they say "we're just here for you".