"We're just here for you."

I'm going back to Elbi tomorrow.

"We're just here for you", all of my friends say. And that's exactly the problem. They are where they are and not with me. I need friends who will be physically with me. But of course they can't be with me because they have jobs and all other crap more important than a friend who's thinking of suicide. So I'll just go where they are so that it'll be more realistic the next time they say "we're just here for you".