20 July 2010

Hard

We can't be together anymore. I get it. But that doesn't make me love him less. And it also doesn't make me wanna get rid of him. In fact, I still want him so bad that if being friends would be the only way to still have him around, I'll take it. I'd take whatever he can give.

But this I-wanna-know-everything thing that he's doing makes me rethink if the friendship is really worth the pain. He's been trying to find unmentioned faults that I did when we were still together. It's as if finding such faults would make him feel less guilty and relieve him of the pain (and shame?) he's experiencing. Relief at my expense. That's the way I see it.

I didn't know trying to be friends with him could be this hard.

15 comments:

  1. awww, mahirap talaga makipagkaibigan sa ex..as in

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  2. I was about to post the same thing as what Erick did. I had my share.

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  3. maybe u should try to move on and stay out of his life muna?wala lang,mahirap pero lam ko kakayanin mo...

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  4. i agree with Mac.

    magiwasan muna kayo. hindi maiiwasan na mag-resurface ang old pains kapag nagkikita kayo.

    kaya mo yan! :)

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  5. awwwwww! i wish i can give advice pero im clueless with things like that

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  6. let him know that you're not comfortable with his probing.

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  7. darn... end it when it's ending... start anew when all is forgotten anf forgiven. time heals wounds.

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  8. i agree with parteeboi ... but don't wait too long to rekindle the friendship...bka magkalimutan na kayo ng permanente :)

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  9. umm. i turned down the "friendship-package-deal-after-you-messed-up-with-me" contingency plan.

    i'm an all or nothing guy. guns or roses?

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  10. hear hear @ alterjon but then my mom would have agreed with parteeboi... that's exactly what she told me before when i jumped in to give my ex a second chance...

    be well...

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  11. i was in the same boat..ahmmnn..a month ago...just do what you think is best para walang regrets!

    hugs!!

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  12. Aww. Thanks, guys. Sobrang naappreciate ko naman mga payo/opinyon nyo. Pinag-iisipan ko pa din ngayon. Ayoko din kasi sana na di ko mapapanindigan yung magiging desisyon ko.

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  13. it's never easy. god knows it takes me years before i can be friends with my exes. yung iba pa nga, yung mga super masakit, hanggang ngayon di ko makausap.

    i guess to be friends after, kailangan friends din kayo before. and friends don't find faults anymore. they just accept each other for who they are. idk my two cents lang.

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  14. Aw. Sana pwede ako mag fast forward na lang. :(

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  15. Malay mo gumana. Life is what we make of it, ika nga ng mga nakatatanda. hehe

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